written by Ally Z.
Q: Are you afraid of dying?
A: Are you not? But seriously though, chances are, I'm less afraid of dying than you are. I'm scared of so so many things, I'm not quite a brave person. But dying? It's more sad than scary to me. I'd be sad that I'd miss out on all the experiences I'd try if I'd live. I'd be sad that people who love me would be mouring and be in deep sorrow. I'd be sad to make anyone cry because of my death. Though, I believe there are so many things worse than death in the world. Death is like quite a neutral thing. Even stars die, afterall.
Q: Why are you afraid of aging if you're not that afraid of dying?
A: Because aging is awful. Don't take me wrong, I've met people who enjoyed it. I've met people who aged beautifully and are spending their retirement in happiness and relaxation. Many believe that age gives wisdom. However, I see the other side of aging: health complications, cognitive delicine, loss of autonomy and loss of beauty. We certainly shouldn't be obligated to always make ourselves useful to everyone else, but I personally would hate becoming a liability to others and I'd hate to be kept alive just to be alive. I want to be living. And to live fully, it'd be nice to have a youthful and healthy vessel(body) that isn't plagued with complications that come with aging. Again, we cannot stop time, but the symptoms of aging AREN'T necessary. Multiple breakthroughs in research would agree with me on this.
Q: How old are you?
A: When the project was created I was in my early 20s. When you're reading this, I could be of any age: 20s? 30s? I could be dead, or even in my 300s. Depending on the time you're reading this.
Q: Why can't you just be like a normal person, get married, have some kids and call it a life?
A: So many people have already done that. A path walked by many isn't so fun to me. Besides I have other reasons, one of them being that I'd hate losing two things: brain and beauty. Guess I'm quite crazy. As a child, a certain family member called me dumb and ugly and I took that personally. Now I finally get to be 'pretty and smart' in some people's eyes. I wanna keep that title for as long as possible lol. Think of this as a fun little game to play until I'm dead.
Q: Do you ever think that it's just a phase and you're immature and eventually you'll realize that aging is fine?
A: Well eventually I'll get tired of life. I'd never stop hating aging until it's eradicated but I'll probably hate living to the point that I'll just allow myself to die.
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